assalamualaikum & selamat menyambut hari raya aidilfitri..
pertama sekali, saya nak cakap saya blom raya lagi esok..new zealand tak nampak anak bulan..jadi kami akan beraya pada hari isnin..saya terasa sangat sayu (T_T) umi cakap pagi raya jangan lupa call tapi pagi raya saya adalah pada hari isnin..sob sob..
tadi ayah call, maka kejadian tidak beraya pada hari ahad telah berjaya sampai kepengetahuan ayah..maka ayah dengan skemanya cakap “takpe, dah pemerintah negara tu cakap raya ahad, raya la ahad” ye terima kasih ye ayah..sungguh tak membantu..cis..
ayah juga membawa perkhabaran bahawa lemang dah siap..rendang dah ready dan yang penting masak lodeh mak ngah dah sedia untuk dijadikan santapan..ibu *panggilan untuk makngah* ayu rindu lodeh ibu..kat sini takde tempe..kalo tak sure ayu dah buat~!!! *nangis esak2*
sedih bila kenang semua ni..tak pe la..bergembira la walaupun raya hari isnin..i’Allah raya kat sini pun sama meriahnya..cuma tak dapat duit raya la..hu~saya rindu untuk tengok sampul duit raya..saya rindu iklan raya juga~!!!
dikesempatan ini, saya Nor Ayu Zie Anuar ingin menyusun sepuluh jari, memohon ampun dan maaf dari hujung rambut ke hujung kaki kepada semua rakan-rakan, saudara mara, guru-guru dan kaum keluarga..halalkan makan dan minum saya, halalkan segala ilmu yang telah diajarkan/dikongsikan kepada saya..maafkan segala keterlanjuran kata dan perbuatan saya sama ada sengaja atau pun tidak..saya insan biasa, tak lekang daripada melakukan kesalahan..jika ada hutang yang saya terlupa, ingatkan saya supaya boleh dilunaskan..terima kasih kalau sudi menghalalkan 🙂 semoga syawal kali ini dilimpahi dengan rahmatNya..selamat hari raya, maaf zahir & batin..
to : amir fikrie mohamad arif (amir adkah ko mementingkan ejaan name ko? ok tp eventhough slh wish ni mmg utk ko ye..aku xknal je org lain name amir fikrie yg birthdate die adlah arini)
wish : i quote this from a native american tribe..”when you were born, you cried and the world rejoiced. Live your life so that when you die, the world cries and you rejoice” happy birthday amir~! slmt beraya kt msia..wuwu..sile send kad raye kt aku~~~
it has always been rough and hectic week for me..penat dh nk tulis bnde yg same..smpai kadang2 ade je one or two of those days yg smooth tp ke rough-an dan kehectic-an the rest of the days mengatasi kehappy-an t’sebut..tgk..BM pn teruk..English pn makin teruk..owh yuyu..dan rakan2 yuyu, ketahuilah bahawa yuyu is so in need of holiday.. 🙂 but anyway, that’s just how things happen so i have to adapt and cope with it je la..and my ways of coping with the roughness and hecticness are..?em..deal with everything because it will be undone forever if i don’t work on settling it..and appreciate the 2 3 or 4 beautiful days..like right now..the sun is smiling so brightly into my room through my humble window 🙂
we’re now in the last few days of ramadhan, and recalling back my experience of ramadhan in malaysia, this is the time when we feel like the temperature is at it’s highest degree but ironically enough, this is also the time when people go crazy over raya preparation..it’s the time when shops offer further discounts on all items (baju, kuih, langsir and everything! you name it)..people don’t mind getting all sweaty and stuffy in areas like masjid india for raya shopping in the middle of the days..and not to mention the traffic jam along the way..man i hate it when i’m one of the crowd..
owh and why am i writing about this..?because i bloody miss that environment~!! i can go down to the town and do some shopping but they don’t provide anything similar to what can be found in malysian shops for hari raya..i don’t miss that strikingly hot weather part, but i miss the shouts of the stall owner cutting down the prices of the shawls and butang baju melayu from his stall..i miss to do the shopping with my friends..breaking fast same2..pegi bank tuka duit raye..msk kn duit raya dlm packet..and skrg bdk2 uni kt msia pn dh start cuti raya..my friends have even planned to go for jln2 raya ramai2 on 4th of raya..i miss it~!!! d last time i went jln2 raya with them i came back home at 3 in the morning and my grandma went cynical towards me by saying “dh jadi antu raya blk lmbt2” haha..
and, usually, on hari bantai (sehari sblm raya) nenek wajib buat lemang sendiri and since my family is just a small family, and everyone tinggal area melaka and putrajaya/serdang (xsmpai kl pn so jgn nk ngada2 ckp jauh xnk balik), SEMUA diwajibkn balik untuk memudahkn proses membakar lemang..so of course my old and dh xbrape nk berdaya dh mak tu (i call grandma ‘mak’) akan jd plg bising..the santan, garam and pulut have to be properly prepared..selalu ayah dgn uncle kne crk kayu api 2 3 ari before bakar lemang..so uncle kne ade kt kampung 2 3 ari before bantai la..haha..ayah pn..sekali bakar lemang nk dekat 100 batang..so ms ni la cucu2 mak sgt2 diperlukan..nasibla majority lelaki..tp yg plg salu jd mangse adlah idin (adik ku yg pembuli), ayin (cousin), abg ajim (abg si ayin), abg md nor (abg ipar ayin and abg ajim), uncle and ayah..derg akan salu bengang dgn hafiz and pali sbb bdk 2 ekor ni salu smpai time lemang dh siap bakar..time2 dkat2 buke br smpai..tp xpe, hafiz dgn pali pandai bodek..th drp tokan mane th derg dpat mercun..so mlm2 raye, lpas takbir derg dok memekak kn area kampung tu..adoi la~!!! penat aku kmas umah ltak air wick last2 bau mercun jugak..
tp this year may be raye xmriah sgt..sob sob..acik 1 family kt serb..abg ajim dh kawen, tggal abg kimi and abg boy yg xreti nk blk ms hari bantai..nk jugak smpai pagi2 raye..konon2 usahawan plg berjaya la di alam semesta..?haha..cik mon juge di luar negara..pali baru2 ni msk ICU..he’s my closest cousin and when i heard about this badnews, i almost went hysterical..you have my prayer with you angel..you’ll be fine i’Allah..get well soon so i can watch you play rugby again..sob sob..
I MISS HOME~!!! dan nak duit raye.. 🙂 ade x sape2 nk ksk kt cni..hoho.. :p
i walked home from school this afternoon and i met one of my favorite cats on my way..he used to have those shiny and fluffy fur and he used to be fat and heavy..we rarely met since the last three weeks because of TE and when i saw him today, i was shocked to see how much weight he had lost..he’s so thin and small and light now..he didn’t purr with energy..he sounded like using all the energy he has just to purr..i felt guilty for making him walked towards me..i so feel like seeing the owner and ask him to feed that cat..it’s so unkind and inhumane at some point to let your pet starve..you chose to keep that pet at the first place..sob sob..bertahan la wahai kucing mata kerikil~~~
yum~i’ve just had a good buke puasa with k.long and che..k.long told me not to cook yet because i still have a lot of left overs..and it’s not good just to waste all of them and therefore, for the sake of wanting to have something new as the juadah, i convinced k.long that i will only make a plate of stir fry veggies..so, altogether, there were chicken soup, ayam msk lmak cili api, ayam black pepper, kari udang, keropok ikan, cookie and cream ice cream, two different juices and of course my newly invented (found) thai stir fry veggies..and the result was, we were bloated..huhu..ok if my housemates didn’t, i was..so now i have to help my digestive system to work properly and let it take its time..and in the mean time, i just need to sit upright, breathe calmly..and blog! 🙂
owh, i was a second too late by the time i realised that i wanted to post the picture of my thai stir fry veggie because there was nothing left to be captured by that time..*wink* huhu..see..i made it! 🙂 owh..ok..my camera was broken so i cannot capture it anyway..it’s ok, i’ll just find a picture of it..the ingredients were quite different but it tasted the same with the ordinary stir fry..haha..gotcha! you might have expected something savoury and different and extra ordinary aren’t you..sorry to disappoint you on that :p
p/s: those are the pictures i found from mr. google..saje nk mriah2kn blog ltak gmba..credit to empunya gamba..em..sbnrny, ksimpulan yg ingin di buat kt blog ni adlah..sobsob..i miss ramadhan in malaysia, i miss the environment and the felling of fasting and breaking fast in malaysia..no matter how much food i have for breaking fast here, it just couldn’t create the atmosphere of my beloved dusun, the happening bazar ramadhan, the hot days bla bla bla..air tebu, air kelapa laut madu..but anyway, alhamdulillah..for what i have now..they’re different but i still have them..
and i came across one of my friends blog..and he was describing about his dream house and i want to do it too~!!! haha..here are some of the pictures (again from mr. google) that captured my attention and suit my imagination of my dream home 🙂 it should be minimalist yet there’s a need for some ‘glamour’ elements..dream on!
the second week of teaching experience had been a busy one yet exciting enough for me..i had to make lesson plans every night prior to the teaching on the next day..the process of going back and forth to lower hutt and the fact that we are undergoing ramadhan has really tested us physically..however, the responses that i received from the students and my associate teacher had really helped me revived..it’s not so much about me getting to finish the lesson plans and getting to finish the teachings and getting good feedback..it’s about seeing the kids getting to understand what i was teaching them and being able to be a part of them and see things from their point of view..it’s such a miracle what i’d gone through..
when i started the observation i heard about the labeling (or prejudice i might say), that other teachers had on the students in my classroom..some even said it directly to my face..they said the students in my classroom are problematic, noisy, low achievers etc..
they might have said that based on their experience i guess..but i didn’t see all of those things..i saw those kids as energetic and enthusiastic..yes they are noisy but they can be handled with good management..i have to say that if the teachers cannot control them, it is because the teachers have poor classroom management skills..
my associate teacher told me that those kids need more time to understand what is being taught and they work better if they can communicate what they have learned..so we need to provide the communication opportunities for the students to help them learn..for example, if the teacher is doing reading, the teacher should provide some time for the students to share their interpretation of the story to their friends..if the teacher is doing writing, the students deserve sometime to share their ideas with their friend and if they are doing mathematics, they need time to help their friends who cannot not understand the concept as they do..the teacher just need to control the ‘communication’ environment so it does not skid from the real intention of learning and yes, they work as a group and teachers just need to understand that..teaching is not about giving instructions and make students obey toward all the orders..teaching is about providing the safe opportunities for learning to occur to both learners and TEACHERS..safe as in it’s ok to make mistakes and yes, ok to communicate..
and one more thing..i sympathize the students at my school because most of them don’t come from a well to do family..some of them don’t have anything for morning tea or lunch..most of them brought potato chips or an apple or an orange as their meal for that day..i just could not stand to see those energetic kids just had a potato chips for their lunch..they don’t have a canteen to buy lunch..even if they have, i don’t think they can afford to buy any food..so to all parents..hu~i wish they read this..your kids are at the stage of active growth..so they need all the nutritions to support their growth physically and mentally..breakfast does not necessarily be expensive..it just needs to be healthy..egg sandwiches is easy to prepare and it’s does not cost you more than $10 and it can be used for one week..
and har~there’s this one boy in my class..he’s the youngest i think in year 7 but his reading and numeracy level is better than some year 8 students..when i asked about his family, he told me he’s staying with his step family because his biological father is in jail..what i’m trying to say is that, he can still be a good student even without getting good support from family..he is at that stage solely based on what he learned from the teachers and friends..imagine what he could have been if he gets support from the family..sedarlah rakan2, jgn start b’family kalo blom ready and kalo dh ade family jgn la selfish nk kawen byk2 ke, nk gedik2 commit crime ke, bwk kereta cm org gila ke (emo skjap sbb i’ve seen the effects kt budak2 kecik tu!) huhu..family is a very important institution for human development and kids need support for their growth and parents need to be there for them..hu~let’s pray so that we’ll be a good parents soon..amin..
there was this social event held by the school the other day and students need to pay only $5 plus a $20 techno-craft fee for every term, which cumulatively becomes $65..but they only need to pay $20 dollar per term plus $5 for that event..but only 4 or 5 students in my class could afford that because their parents could not afford to pay the fees..i asked one of the kids whether they’ll go to that event or not and he said “no, i don’t have any money to pay to go to that event” and he’s only 11..how i cannot stop my tears from coming out..they were not embarrassed to admit that they could not afford to go to that event and they didn’t complain or force their parents to get the money for them..how can i not love those kids..?
i was evaluated by my lecturer yesterday (friday) and after seeing my associate teacher to get the feedback about my teaching, she came to me and told me my teacher was so delighted with my presence and she’s happy with my progression..i burst into tears when i heard that because i think i managed to do all that because my teacher led me to see what other people could not see about those maori students..thank you miss mereana..
they sang a maori song for me on my last day at that school..and they sang rasa sayang to me too..and of course i received souvenirs from the students..it was so hard to leave the school and that bunch of kids..i made a video for them so they have something to remember about me.. 🙂 here’s the link..