i’m out of the machine..

a lot have been happening to me lately and as of today, it’s nearing a week since i finished the orientation camp in lenggong perak and an induction course in MARA hq..that one week felt like the longest week ever but really i couldn’t be more grateful as niena and i were placed in one of the newly furnished rooms at the hotel we stayed in..i wanted to take that bed hommmmmmmmmee T_T

as for that camp, really, i dont think anyone in their right mind would volunteer to go and undergo all of the activities we did..i mean, all of the activities were fun and exciting like night walking, flying fox, community service, water sports (only to mention a few)..but the time constraint really acted as a major turn off..we slept around 4am one night and the next day we’re up at 6am..really it was physically challenging, not to mention how many times i fell into kolam tadahan air penuh berudu dan lumpur warna hijau penuh lumut (yes english couldnt explain it that well) because i fell from the monkey rack and tarzan swing..still unfortunately i couldn’t find my tarzan T_T

alright i was ok with the activities, i was just a bit frustrated with the content of the camp..the talks and messages from each of the activities revolved around getting us to be tough for the coming position that we enrolled ourselves into – teaching..true enough things couldn’t get any worse – physically..but by brainwashing the future teachers into thinking being a teacher could be one of the deadliest jobs on earth – what could that lead into..?

i liked the idea when they said “get to know the people first, get to know how’s it like in THEIR culture there and get to know how to work with the people there before introducing anything new”..that kind of advice gave us hope that with the right way, we could be heard and accepted..

however, not opening up a path for us to challenge what’s already in the system would 1st – put all the money spent on us into waste; 2nd – put everything on the same place, stationary, without any movement against the fast developing countries around us; 3rd – create some poorly developed human capitals who would accept that learning a language would stop at scoring As in exams without having the consciousness of learning it for further use in developing their future..

there’s a clash in understanding the mission between the people in the admin and the people working at the schools..that alone, explained why some of the students were still underachieving when all of the teachers have been spending 90% if not more of their time with the students..

key phrases being – imbalance distribution of time and no task specialization..

really i don’t want to go further into this argument because to some people it might seem as if i’m eating the hands that have been feeding me but i’m just doing my part, into saying that “stop, look around, there are things that could be done right and it’s NEVER sinful to change some of the inherited traditions just so things could improve and benefit everyone of us”..it’s not easy and no one told me it’s gonna be easy but trust me it’s NOT impossible..

look up for new challenges, take up new roles, look into different perspectives and be critical (no, i don’t mean radical)..but remain as a balance human being..we don’t want to be more of a teacher less of a father to our own flesh and blood..tell me honestly if there’s anyone of you who’s willing to spend the whole weekend with the students after a week of classes and not spend it with your own family..or miss the dinner time together with your little toddler just so you could help a bunch of students to score A in their SPM..think about it people..

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