of that separation..

that sudden and unplan visit to hometown i just had, i’m grateful for that..because it bought me some extra time to be around with the people i love..God knows i need that, beyond what i think i know..

i arrived this afternoon feeling sick from the long air travel..feeling homesick and sad as i had to leave those people i love behind..i never thought it could be this difficult and airport goodbyes have never been this hard..

as i entered the room, the hallway was filled with flyers..i used to curse on those flyers because they’d occupy the space in the dustbin..i even felt like putting up a notice on my door saying that i don’t welcome any flyers..but i collected those flyers today, not feeling angry towards the people who left them..because jack once told me that they’re doing their job..the more they could give away, the more they’ll earn..at least they don’t steal..taking the flyers is a form of help we could offer..so yes, i helped them today..

i walked in, and i saw that two pair of shoes of his..only no one can fit into them like he could..his big jeans, that ugly white belt, and his savior cap which he used to cover up in snow and rain..those thing will occupy the shelf, until the owner uses them back..they can wait..

there’s his perfume and aftershave on my bookshelf..i purposefully asked him to leave those here and let him took the perfume i gave..so i can smell him near me whenever i miss him..

those jackets and tees inside the wardrobe, i’ll put them on some time..when i miss seeing him walking around in those jumper..especially that stripe jumper..he always used that jumper to pray..he left his favourite tees too..but i’ll not wear those..i can’t bear seeing how loose the tees are on me, compared to being comfortably fitting if he wears it..

there are some chocolate rolls in the fridge..i guess he forgot to finish it..he knew i don’t like those chocolate rolls..and there’s this mint-chocolate-chip ice cream tub..he finished it all by himself..thinking i’d waste it if he can’t finish it..

now the tv is off, no one is watching friends while playing some kiddo games on the ipad..no one occupies the couch like he did..and no one is here to join me and my duvets for movie nights..no one is buying snacks anymore..

i have been crying and i’m letting myself to cry..i will stop, i know i will..i’m building a strong belief that this is never a goodbye, this is just a longer ‘soon’ in i’ll see you soon..you do take good care there, alright..

dear jack, you know i miss you..terribly..*cry*

of that hashtag..

it started to snow two days ago and i found #uksnow on twitter..well i tweeted using the same hashtag and i appeared on the hastag’s page..and tonight, when it snows again in leeds, i tweet the same hashtag and i notice that they also have #uksnowmap..so i tweet the occurrence of snow and specify my place and poof! look at this people..i’m on the globe! hahah #jakun

you can check where the snow falls on this map, what people tweet about the snow conditions, and see some photos too..this is swag man~ LOL!
you can check where the snow falls on this map, what people tweet about the snow conditions, and see some photos too..this is swag man~ LOL!

oh i also heard that it’s darurat in jakarta..fellow friends studying there, be safe ya..my prayers are with you guys there..do keep some fresh water handy..and save!

of that expensive decision..

there are just too many reasons to be grateful about..alhamdulillah, i passed the assessment i went to at PTD assessment center a couple of months ago..and i have to get ready for the interview, scheduled to be attended on the 23rd of january..

when i applied for this post, i was waiting for my teaching post which at that time, the wait seemed never ending..everyone around me was making a lot of noises asking me to find a temporary job which i also did, and which i did not get any either..only after a few months that everything came together at one time..i got my teaching post, the MA application was approved and i was called to the assessment center..

several decisions was made and poof! i’m here doing my MA and i just purchased my ticket to go back to Malaysia to attend the PTD interview..

that was a lot of money spent, considering the chances of passing the interview as well as making myself available for the PTD cadet training..which was slim, as i still have a semester to finish my studies..

if it is up to me, i already made a different arrangement with dear husband..something like finishing my MA here, continue working in a foreign land for a year, and let husband work in some international banking institutes for a year or so..i started off with working quite a bit later in life hence there’s an urge for me to earn as much as i can, to compensate the years i spent in the education line..husband too is planning to work on our savings for future plans..

the thing is, i can’t not go for the interview..there’s a huge familial matter involve..gosh..i really don’t want to break anyone’s heart especially when they’re family to you 😦 ah well..i’ll just do what they wish for me to do..passing or not, really God will help me lead the life He wants me to..

toast! to a married life :)

so let’s just say, i’ve stepped my feet onto a new phase of life..now i’m somebody’s wife people! *showing off the ring on my finger* 🙂 i’m adjusting to this new life pretty gradually but i believe i’ll get used to it somehow and of course i’m working on that..now i’m having that strong figure guiding me right by my side, someone i could cling on whenever i feel like, someone i’d goof around without worrying if i annoy him so badly and in return, i have to let him share the bed with me, the toilet seat, the toothbrush’s cup, and may be more 😦 hahah..

it’s a totally new experience to begin with..with my MA on the way, i pretty much have to divide my time carefully so i’d still be a wife dutifully, and be a student committedly too..but he’s always been very understanding and in fact, he just cleaned up the freezer for me with the hope that i’d be writing my essay but i’m doing this instead..hahah..

i just want to share some of our honeymoon photos in Paris last week..it’s cold, gloomy and wet all the time and being Paris, its uncleanliness is sometimes unbearable..so i guess it’s a lesson learned for my handsome boyfriend..it’s not really a good idea to go around europe in winter, unless you’re up for some winter sports 🙂 alas, it’s a honeymoon well spent with my dear better half..thank you for the trip darling..let’s pray for a lifetime of happiness and togetherness, i’Allah..

museum of love at the back there..we went there just to find the ever exclusive monalisa..straight ahead after arriving that morning..
museum of love at the back there..we went there just to find the ever exclusive monalisa..straight ahead after arriving that morning..
on the river cruise! :) well we missed the eiffle when this photo was taken..the boat was moving :(
on the river cruise! 🙂 well we missed the eiffle when this photo was taken..the boat was moving 😦
we stopped at the middle of the traffic light to have this taken..apparently, we're not the only one who did this..hahah..
we stopped at the middle of the traffic light to have this taken..apparently, we’re not the only one who did this..hahah..

 

 

of that exam period..

i went to the library yesterday to print out some documents and i saw people starting to fill up the study area..the exam period is coming and more people are coming back from their holidays..

i’m all set to finish the assignment and get ready for the exams..some people just need the nudge to get them started so as i see my friend sitting at one of the desks in the library today, it hits me that i should start doing my works too..

we’ll see how it goes tonight 😛