i just found myself spraying some of jack’s perfume in my wardrobe, on my pillow and on my duvet..it’s just amusing how all these – that looks so surreal to me – eventually makes me fall deeper into its wonders..
i used to not feel anything toward the distance that has been separating me from my then boyfriend..but just the other day when he sent me off to the airport, i cried a river thinking that i’ll be by myself at the place where he used to stick around for less than a month..just thinking about it, yes, i cried..and as i arrived home, poof! i really thought my world just crumbled..trust me it’s true and i wasn’t trying to be dramatic..hahah..
i really think things just happen so fast that i don’t think i’ve even properly digested everything inside my head..suddenly we’re making travel plans, pilgrimage plans, building a home, making savings yadda yadda yadda..they’re both exciting and thrilling and if this is a dream, please don’t wake me up from it..
studies are keeping me busy and occupied and indifferent sometimes..and may be i’m still in denial that i’m now off the market..and if i haven’t thanked you enough, dear husband who’s proudly changed my status into a mrs now, thank you for this wonderful phase of life 🙂
i always dream to be born not as the first born and that i have a big brother..and i always want him to tell me that he’s proud of me whenever situations allow him to say that..when i look back, i don’t live in a family where appreciations are valued highly and i wasn’t taught to appreciate enough, that i think it’s awkward to praise my younger brother/friends whenever they’ve done something significant which could lead them into having a better sense of selves..
yea, until destiny brought me to different places and societies..that’s when i learned showing a kind and sincere appreciation would not only change what people thought of themselves, it also made you a grateful person – you’d realise each one of them had something valuable to contribute and collectively, they also shaped your life in one way or another..
so if i were to have a family, i will teach them to show their appreciations when they mean them and as parents too, i’d like to see what my kids would turn into if i’m not stingy with my appreciations/encouragements..
i’ve been waking up early lately..seems like i’m more disciplined when i’m on my own..let’s see what will happen in this two or three days..yot will be coming and i’ll depend entirely on her to wake me up..haha..
anyway, the weather is getting better now..i wake up to calming morning almost every day..minus some occasional and very seasonal stormy days, the rest of the days are perfectly fine..it’s chilly, but it gets brighter later..seriously this reminds me of the beautiful days in wellington..back then, i wake up to the beautiful, hilly geography and some sweet scent of grass in spring..maybe with some scary and howling sound of the wind but that’s just how the nature sings in soprano there..
i remember asking my housemate to go out for sushi with me..we rarely go out for shopping unless it’s perfume shopping..so yea, we treasure food and the nature more than those new, frilly dress at tempt or valley girl or glassons or country road..err, but we do shop a lot of perfumes and shoes 😀 and being spring, we can easily get that windy effects on our camera and of course, more colors as our background!
i really wish i could grab my back pack, chuck my camera in it, go grab a plate of sushi, then take a bus to the botanic garden or alright, confuse myself if the beach makes a more beautiful photo..alas, my model would be willing to pose just anywhere as i instructed her..
dear wellington, i found love in you, i found A LOT of loves there..i miss you..